The Areas of My Life That Need Some Presence

In reading my previous journal articles since I started writing in mid 2019, I’ve discovered that there are several things that I have wanted to do but still haven’t yet implemented them. They mainly are: waking up early, not masturbating even if you’re not ejaculating meditating, doing a solid morning routine of breathing / stretching, working out consistently, calming the mind, living in the body not the mind, living in love not fear, minimizing distractions, harnessing presence / focus while working, harnessing presence while living life, improving my memory by being hyper present, and actualizing my work. These are really the only themes I have to work on in my life, everything else I’ve sorted out and I’m good with. So if I just focused on these things, I’d be amazing in life. I’d be the man I’ve wanted to be for some time now. So it’s time, just do it. 

One of the major things I discovered a few moments ago was how much I actually masturbate. Even if I’m not ejaculating, is till touch my penis when I wake up and before I go to bed. And this isn’t healthy. Imagine if I took that energy and directed it elsewhere. What if I stopped ejaculating for a long time? I’d have to stop masturbating for a long time too, cuz masturbating while doing semen retention is really difficult, the urge just becomes too much. So stop it, or at least minimize it.